again
reading the darkest scenarios
at first – procession of thoughts only
then trains filled with cattle running above the night
you dream so much
to miss
stay where you are sculpted
by light
invisible

it is so nice when it finally hits you
with all the Universe it got
desperate
to shine on you
loving your patience and guts
loving being alive

yet
somewhere behind your back
and out of sight
like most beginnings
darkness materializes
thin air fateful with sharp fixtures to space
you must inhabit and use
for the sake of pain
of living:

sacrificial flame
eating away its time
all yours

minds
watch them bring frames of the future
spread those along motion of time
let it all run
on hope
past experience
coded and saved
so deep
they will need to dig
every coffin and look
for God’s
living flesh

• nowhere is now
  and tomorrow
  just sits on some lonely rock
  or circles above each thought
  that needs to hide
  at night

  touch it
  as if nothing could come out of it
  and it will

  haven’t you ever asked for a proof of nowhere?
  somewhere close
  good as always
  waiting
  just waiting to take you places

time
has a sick show to run
epidemic of movements within foreseeable past
us as the clowns hanging onto life
our cost too high for permanent heavens
and it is so good all rivers come to an end
as ocean
floating on promise of bigger things
so big no eye can see
the mystery of clouds
falling back
on desert

happens
so Now

when the sons of enemy Gods go to war
over trivial matters of material existence
on colony Earth
in the center of this Sucker Universe
there will be natural clones taking it seriously
as if more was at stake
than just the smell
of their flesh
quietly burning

with criminal fear over reason
new generation of game
will mark its time
with spasms of pain
silently watched but visibly cared for

will ridiculously pay the price
for having a chance to bread
still newer generation of game
and for newer things to come
as always
to satisfy demand for corpses

interesting how
sitting back has just become a crime
and that’s what you need
sit back through it
relax
your heart opened
to end of your time
hopeless
but fun
it was