11:19 just flashed at my face
right after 11:11 made itself present
only a few whispers ago
a few incomprehensible utterances that plunged me into the darkness
therefore I am waiting
slowly sinking into the badlands of mind
lamb
paranoid lamb deluded by the assault of nightfall
anticipating projections from omens and gods
nervously
awaiting sudden reset of the only world I cherish and know

tomorrow
on Day of The Sun
soon
I will open my eyes to 1:09
like tormented I did yesterday
and before leaving late for my paranoid cosmos
on Day of the Moon
I will look at the infinity watch
to absorb 9:11
bold sign from the dark side

then awaken
I will see through car plates
adds
house numbers
key chains
over and over again
multi-dimensional predicament announced
pursued by apprehension too loud for comfort

last time it was NDE
this precise
phantom language encrypted in memory lapse
taste of asphalt
pain therapy
undeserved chastisement
of which
each
by now
became invariable custom

Master of Numbers
father
tell me
what is it
of this world
that is going to shift me to another?

what are You trying to imply
will happen to this sickening place
on present Earth I willingly took
so far
survived
its patterns and engagements?

I breathe imagination
whatever shreds were left of it
Memory froze all images for a while
streets
curbs
loneliness raining on faces

and I followed myself into ascension
to become one with the universe
beside my frame

I guess
I have winged soul with hope and false promises
slowly swam through a web of rivers
into the mouth of an open ocean
and since yesterday
in contrast to the common knowledge
I consider Time a fundamental fool
because Yesterday never stayed
it meant no reality to be
no illusions to dream
no trumpets nor towers
it meant
there wasn’t any of this bitter madness from birth to waste
lonely hours of ill fate
or falling into pieces

all was faked

“wait for your turn”
whispers magic of barely conceived Today
from which it is to grow
shrouded in words
my beautiful Eternity
as Yesterday wore out along the roads
I took
to find it

***

Oddycham wyobrażnią
tylko ona pozostala  z ulotnego tchnienia
życia
duszę się

Wczoraj na chwilę zatrzymałem
wszystko co krwawi tutaj brutalna samotnością
i śledziłem siebie w wymiarach wniebowstąpienia
jakbym był nieobliczalną przestrzenią
poza chorym ciałem

prawdopodobnie płonną nadzieją uskrzydliłem duszę
i dlatego od Wczoraj mam Czas
w przeciwieństwie do dominujących wierzeń
za fundamentalnego durnia
bo przecież Wczoraj nigdy nie było
nie było jawy i złud
fanfar i wież
nie było całego tego szaleństwa od urodzenia do zaprzepaszczenia

nadejdzie spokój
tak przekonuje mnie magia
właśnie poczętego Dzisiaj
z którego ma wyrosnąć
pogrążona  w snach
moja poddana Wieczność