If you are reading this book now and you are not Ashley, this book is not for you. It is meant and is being written exclusively for one person in this world whom I don’t know and will probably never get to know.
All I know is that she exists. Somehow it still makes it worthwhile to write the book, maybe just to experience the privilege of being in love with the image created thanks to a real person, from which, suddenly, all other things derive and are defined. The purpose is being born today.
It is a book about falling in love with life again, both, as seen in retrospect but also with hope to advance it into a better future, glittering and charming again, whatever is left of it in our “real” dimensions.
I am not going to change the language, correct it much or go through an effort to sound like a native English speaker. I am native to the whole world brought up in Polish and my attachment to it is almost religious.
I will do as I wish because, dear reader,  you are not supposed to read this anyway but I know you are doing it, I would.
Now you, Ashley – never mind all these other people (there will be few thousand every week if I have time to write), just remember it is all for you and because of you.
The chapters that are too personal or revealing, will remain passworded till I am ready to share more with you.
What has happened recently I consider an act of God, as nothing would stimulate me more to defend myself. I took upon this task in a moment of anger and reserve a right to abandon it at any time of my choosing while remaining faithful to the general direction of my life – not hurting others and helping them in becoming the other side has meant them to become through fate and their talents. I owe you awakening to dreams.
That’s all I wish to possess at the moment.