Fool

I am sealed in God’s book for a slow death
the slower it gets the denser the words become
it is a handwritten script my soul has always been aware of
since always got invented to mean as long as I live in this body
but is life here life if it dies?
Or is it just an irony of fate extended to last a little longer
than barely enough
Lord?
Are you listening?
Did you cry tears of joy at the end of the seventh day?
Did you swear?
Did you pray or are the prayers just for us?
Who do you pray to?
And finally
what about proportion
of happiness to misery?
shame really and
am I a fool to ask?