god of Joshua tree /1999

behind that ridge
or invisibly further away
behind enigma of quietest Ocean
and drapes of winds
hanging on crossroads
I’m fading
from visibly lost
to transparent no one
while the fade darkens my thoughts

still
on my way  home away from home
there is this clock I  need to set on fire
while it ticks
its last song of passage

I watch desert
swallow its burnt
stinking time
lonely days
shattered veins
dedicated to later
which never came
and painful chase of birds that matters
no more
separated from hope
by millions of steps
I never desired to walk

it is my PAST
behind that ridge
waiting for more
of living me
but I  never mind self
already late as ALWAYS

so fuck it

took few drags on cigarette
pissed
talked to God of Joshua Tree
stone flattend by  Sun
any icon I could find
talked to miles of dust rising
and prayed
help me
bring on the flood
and slowly
very  slowly
drove off  for the mountains
in Heavens