broken to dust

there is no one night of the past
the crown and the jewel

you get something out of many nights
with many women
and only in your mind
after years of lust and dreaming
it is this one perfect
feeling of desire
towards something that will never be again since past
took all the women
you could have possibly loved
with all your heart now
suddenly broken to dust
and memories lost
of mother young
caring
still alive