this is not pain
this is wake up call from Hell next door
morning Bob
new and fresh
see the blood?
welcome to your body

In my sleep I thought
I have already left it but no
not yet
it is still there
waiting
breathing reality
moving hand
arm
pain again
biological warfare dedicated to you
Bob
don’t fight it
it makes you free
and win
that besides the gun
loaded last night 9mm
calamity of wait everywhere
as seen from inside
your latest life
ripe
you are still a son to someone
her

don’t

God
why did you make me this me?
not him
her
it
elsewhere
far from here
invisible
withdrawn
fuck it all or
fuck it II
sequel
leaving it behind
will not be hard
you knew

Ashley
you don’t have to remember me
I met you for no reason
in this for nothing world
in no specific to anything that matters time
by accident
defined as once
twice
six
seven times
but I am gonna love you for the rest of what is left of my life
not much but
this is how chance
or
random design works
coincidence painless to you
or
exercise
before someone better enters your mind
performs acts of sexual harassment
starts advances
those wanted and expected
mine were poorly crafted
crippled with improbability
I am sorry
for just being
I have no control over all the strands of reality on Earth
I don’t
maybe later

it is not that I lost my way
I never knew East from West
North from South
universal heart of mine was the guide
not my choice
or knowledge

among all languages which one speaks the truth?
it’s you
remember
before you disappear into a bird
a tree
morning breeze
lessons of life are not terminated by dimensions
true
for those eternal

Hopi knew
that the end of the path
is not a termination line
for each one of you skies are open
if you are a Star Walker
you will be going home