My sanity

in case
you’ve never heard how I lost
all my sanity

fucking sanity just dissolved out on me
seems gone from my system
whatever was left of it
that anyway
I shared
with the whole fucking world
like the air
or blind rivers of fate

I wasn’t even mortified
I packed my bags earlier
beads of meat
swears
unknown
foreign
elements
on the strings of hostile DNA I carry
events and crimes
manipulated
as this world
well
it watched me go
it watched me cold
running in circles of rigor mortis and live
bloody cough to wake up breathing

resurrection isn’t anything serious
God knows
I took
my shot