You were born again

every day comes at a price
discounts are available on the other side of the ocean
in this almost free
world
hanging between brick walls
and concrete
you now know how to call by name
poster walls of sudden ZOO
around

because that’s where it is
always somewhere else
don’t tell me you haven’t seen through it
before
you were born
again

and it is at the back of your mind
where doubt awakens
fake moments to remember
disguise of a fair trade
but it kills you
this hope
of sunlit islands
made of all possible heavens
in this impossible arrangement of guilt
conciseness for sale
it hurts

why didn’t you check the tag
if it is truly your life you are paying for
or is it some loud intrusion
by rebirth
into alien
living space
somehow you have always meant to have
and carry as your cross
for God’s sake
this life
I am only using it
to survive one more day
each
and every
day
I am losing to this fate