Taking it easy. The numerous and loud idiots around. I had to listen to a conversation of two people today. It was a torture.
I didn’t interrupt because I wold have to contradict everything they knew, even though they were at odds, presenting different views.
Both programmed by official history and television.They were discussing history. Go, get a donut and shut up. It doesn’t happen. What a nightmare dealing with idiots that for peace of mind you chose to ignore.
Not a good day. I could use some of the energy the girl from the coffee shop was giving me.
But she is gone.
Took me five years to be curious about a woman again in a different way than just sex.
Five years to just walk away. It sucks.
Only twice in my life I slept with women older than thirty and both of them older than me.
One I knew for years and always wanted her but she would not cheat on her boyfriend.
The other one I saw and I gad rto have her. Took me an hour. We ended up in her condo on the ocean.
She knew I was Polish and was a little … cautions.
– You will not take advantage of me right?
I looked at her place, which was absolutely gorgeous, said:
– I could buy you with this place tomorrow.
and it was true at the time.
She didn’t believe. For a fifty six years old woman she had one of the best bodies I have ever seen. Was a model.
I can’t even imagine how beautiful she must have been at twenty something. She was Jewish, lied that she was German to seem more attractive to me.
What’s with all that hiding?
This story is much, much more complicated and twisted than I wish to explain now. At the time we spend the night together and it was a beautiful night, I didn’t know I knew her ex-husband. Small world. amazing story. Could be a movie. It was all because of that girl from Argentina. I signed the contract and that was the beginning of the end.
Enough.

the way I grew up
was the way of a tree
so much rooted in what even I could not see
but this is the truth
the truth
that fed me and pushed towards the Sun
till now
was discovered

and the way I woke up
was the way of a morning

how much of me is me
and what is of others whose reincarnation I am
because it feels like I am
reincarnation of me

reverse

I have a unigue reality for each life
synthetic or protein occurrence of thinking
humanoid mind
attached to my programming
I have a sin and a vaccine for it
give me your hand  and spill some blood into the future

and I do have a clone for each Earth
with memories of wars you would not believe took time
and I have a hope that leads
to the reverse of this blind run from the truth
Amun

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podobał mi się
ale milczał w najważniejszych kwestiach
i tylko ty pod nim  rozmazałaś się słowami
zabawnego nierozpoczęcia
jakby był jakiś cel
którego nie mam

mam wszystkie

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nie schowasz się
nie pod makijażem
nie pod ubraniem
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