paradox of freedom

I live in a happy land
people smile and wave
always say everything is OK
no fly zones are on the other side
who the hell knows where that is
somewhere really  far
far away

my wife is high right now
but she could tell
just ask

but
why
why spoil the day ?

it is 90 degrees
lakefront is packed
see ? kids go crazy
I don’t want to be mean
but no
I don’t want to know
what white phosphorus does to skin

and then Conscience left the beach
for  some basement in ethnic ghetto
full of asylum seekers
fresh
ripe
few crippled

STOVEPIPE

life has so many messages
just listen to them ” knocking on Heaven’s doors”
as in reverse
they always lead to you
of course no one can escape LATER
once integrated and coherent on the other side
so
I was four and we were quite poor
my beautiful parents and older brother we shared a relatively small room
in an area that before the last world war was populated only by Polish Jews
suburb of Warsaw
and a man named Perechodnik wrote about its fate
wrote a book that years later in my second life
I saw discounted on Barnes and Noble shelves
“Am I a murderer?” was the title
few stopped
none cared
American way
The names rang a bell even thou it happened thirty years before I was born
From that war my country came out as the most damaged country of all
Most Jews were gone to early graves or Israel
some were communists in local administration
some were old broken souls that adopted the four year old
sat him on a lap
and I watched
ceramic fireplaces with stars of David, photographs of lost family members
and fear mixed with anger at what this world came to
when it stopped

Maybe then it became obvious The Change is designed for handlers
as we the people matter no more
so
as I said
I was four years old and we were quite poor
because of this war
and the one before
so many wars for such a lonely place
well
my parents and brother already asleep suddenly I was awaken by the TV
the News from Vietnam was on
popular anchor commented on film footage, Rolling Thunder and body count
but as a kid I only cared for his famous Teddy Bear always on his desk
little furry toy I couldn’t get
till I saw that soldier carried on stretches and I sat down and looked scared around
knowing it was me from 1965 or before
somehow
dead

but I am back for more of this Earth
the beautiful
by irony of fate in what an awkward place
that suburb became known for Vietnamese refugees
brought to heal their wounds and I daily bumped into them
characters from outer space
so different, wired
but not to me
my mother walked me to kinder-garden
she waved to them
and many other friends
and friends of friends who left few years back and later fought
Mil’hement sheshet Hayamim

what I am saying is that
this is not an easy world to comprehend
but today
I really miss that US army jacket
old and torn
which I bought at a flee market in Warsaw around unfulfilled 1984
(we only had a stupid martial law)
and I used to wear it to birthdays, weddings and dates
how I wish I brought it with me
home
home of my previous life and of NOW
or whatever is left of it
so thin
still
it gave me a lot of warmth
and it can’t be a lie – it’s all there
the battle raging as always
to break the code of this universe

fallen corpses of men
all over the God damn place
waiting to rise and walk
and not just the saints
not just the saints

Friends that are late

mother
all is fine
only other people die
sometimes I call them on the phone
and yell
after eternity they answer with mean
surprising silence
to wake me up
to the possibility
they are really dead
what can I say?
I am listening

just say it…
mother ?
mother !!!!

Helter Skelter

nothing changes but meat
meat fails
hurts
but still
it is nothing compared to you
woman
leaving the meat behind
as it suffers the birth
of a broken soul
by unmanned double thread
like umbilical cord to Gods
still attached to blood and its veins
on the other end of all-seeing song of life

look at him

what a poor soul in sickening need of hell
for liberated self
as it tries to walk away
maybe to find you
finally a happier person
and then come back to a new arrangement of time and space
sewed up
with a better fate for both of us
as two unfamiliar faces
in unfamiliar crowd

so help them merciful God in Heavens
I’ve just selfishly created with second thought

civilization-burning

they want us to burn
and they want us to build fires
higher than any temples
as far as we can see
so we don’t see
just horizions closing in
with flames
eating away reality
at stake
how do you even find energy
within
to see through the cage
of self-combustion?

RAPTURE OF LIGHT FORMS

God
you have never been the same
never alone
thank you All for the dream
actually too much of it
I have always felt
I was the chosen one
along all
chosen game
patiently asleep
but if I win
let me wake with light again
as  it’s worth it
definitely more
than a ” lie-f”
you fed me up with
for
now

I forgive

BLACK AND WHITE RAINBOWS

I don’t make any mistakes
they somewhat
make me
another person
inside and out
I most definitely don’t want to be
possibly
and if I ever pull these selves together
you will see a mess
of black and white rainbows
hinged on otherworldly hells
exotic
foreign  heavens
all
roots of a single tree
of circumstance and desire
climbing to the Sun
as biological, Earthly me
no better than anyone else
and sadly for the silent rest
no worse
illusionist

The YHWH Code

By Rabbi Dani’el Rendelman


The mapping of the genetic code, known as DNA, is probably the most important scientific breakthrough of the new millennium.  On June 26, 2000, President Clinton and a group of world renowned scientists presented the first genetic map of the human DNA molecule.  Clinton called the discovery the “language in which God created life.”

“Mapping the chemical sequences for human DNA — the chemical “letters” that make up the recipe of human life — is a breakthrough that is expected to revolutionize the practice of medicine by paving the way for new drugs and medical therapies,” says one web site.  This discovery has lasting physical and spiritual implications.  A direct link can easily be found between the building blocks of life and the Creator of the universe.  Mankind is fearfully and wonderfully made, with a hidden code within the cell of every life.  This code is the alphabet of DNA that spells out the Creator’s name and man’s purpose.

Scientist discovered a “map” of four DNA bases that carry the ability to sustain life.  These bases, known as chromosomes, are paired differently for each person.  Human DNA contains 23 pairs of chromosomes, made up of hydrogen, nitrogen, oxygen, carbon, and their acidic counterparts.  Encoded within these elements is an amazing blueprint of life that proves the Creator has put His own unique stamp upon every person.  This stamp is actually His name as revealed to Moses thousands of years ago.

The secret in our DNA…

It was from the burning bush that the Almighty revealed his character as the great “I AM.”  This name is the tetragrammaton of the Hebrew letters yod, hey, waw, hey.  “I AM WHO I AM. This is what you are to say to the Israelites: `I AM has sent me to you.  The Almighty said to Moses, “Say to the Israelites, `Y H W H , the mighty one of our fathers…  This is my name forever, the name by which I am to be remembered from generation to generation,” Exodus 3:14,15.  The Almighty has given us His name as a sign of His existence and an avenue of communication.  However, translators have hidden this Hebrew name in English Bibles.  In the Scriptures, the Sacred name of YHWH is used whenever the English words “LORD” or “GOD” appear in all capital letters.  YHWH is used almost 7,000 times throughout the Bible as the only and unique name of the Mighty One of Israel.  Isaiah corroborates this: “I am YHWH; that is my name; and my glory will I not give to another, ” Isaiah 42:7.  Jeremiah adds his confirmation: “They shall know that my name is YHWH,” in chapter 16 verse 21.  While  Amos 5:8 says, “YHWH is his name.”  The book of  Zechariah declares: “In that day there shall be one YHWH, and his name one.”  The Creator’s Name is YHWH.

Now, compare this four-lettered name to the four elements that make up human DNA and discover an ancient secret of creation.  “The key to translating the code of DNA into a meaningful language is to apply the discovery that converts elements to letters. Based upon their matching values of atomic mass, hydrogen becomes the Hebrew letter Yod (Y), nitrogen becomes the letter Hey (H), oxygen becomes the letter Wav (V or W), and carbon becomes Gimel (G). These substitutions now reveal that the ancient form of YHWH’s name, YHWH, exists as the literal chemistry of our genetic code. Through this bridge between YHWH’s name and the elements of modern science, it now becomes possible to reveal the full mystery and find even greater meaning in the ancient code that lives as each cell of our bodies.

When we substitute modern elements for all four letters of YHWH’s ancient name, we see a result that, at first blush, may be unexpected. Replacing the final H in YHWH with its chemical equivalent of nitrogen, YHWH’s name becomes the elements hydrogen, nitrogen, oxygen, and nitrogen (HNON) — all colorless, odorless, and invisible gases! In other words, replacing 100 percent of YHWH’s personal name with the elements of this world creates a substance that is an intangible, yet very real form of creation!  This is not to suggest that YHWH is simply a wispy gas made of invisible elements. Rather, it’s through the very name that YHWH divulged to Moses over three millennia ago that our world and the foundation of life itself became possible. YHWH tells us that in the form of hydrogen, the single most abundant element of the universe, He is a part of all that has ever been, is, and will be.

Indeed, in the earliest descriptions of YHWH, we are told that He is omnipresent and takes on a form in our world that cannot be seen with our eyes. Thus, He can be known only through His manifestations. The Sepher Yetzirah describes this nonphysical form of YHWH’s presence as the “Breath” of YHWH: “Ten Sefirot of Nothingness: One is the Breath of the Living YHWH, Life of worlds. This is the Holy Breath.”

Additionally, the first chapters of Genesis relate that it is in a nonphysical form that the Creator was present during the time of creation (Genesis 1:2). It was “the spirit of YHWH” that first moved over the face of the earth.

Substituting modern elements for the ancient letters, it is clear that although we share in the first three letters representing 75 percent of our Creator’s name. While the presence of YHWH is the invisible and intangible form of the three gases hydrogen, nitrogen, and oxygen, the last letter of our name is the “stuff” that gives us the color, taste, texture, and sounds of our body: carbon. The one letter that sets us apart from YHWH is also the element that makes us “real” in our world – carbon.

Through both the secret letter codes of antiquity, and the literal translation of DNA as an alphabet, we’re shown that something about our existence remains lasting and eternal. We share that never-ending quality with our Creator through a full seventy-five percent of the elements that define our genetic code,” wrote Gregg Braden in his book The God Code.

In the beginning…

This is scientific proof showing us that YHWH has written His own name upon every human being. Sefer Yetzirah (The Book of Creation) says, “Within the letters is a great, concealed mystical exalted secret… from which everything was created.” His name is within us, encoded into the basic cells of humanity.  Every person, regardless of race, religion, sex, or status has the divine imprint inside their body.  YHWH’sname is in every person… “there is…one YHWH and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all,” says Ephesians 4:5.  The potential of becoming like YHWH is in every person.

Genesis recounts that we have been made “in His image.”  In the beginning, the Creator “breathed upon man and he became a living being.”  It is this deposit from the heavens, the gift of a soul, that separates us from other species.  Inside of each person is the breath of the Creator, known as the soul.  In Hebrew, this is called the “neshamah.”

The neshamah is a divine spark of YHWH found within mankind.  “Should a person strive towards purity in life, he or she is aided by a holyneshama,” says the Zohar in Genesis 206a.  The Scriptures translate “neshamah” as “breath, spirit, and inspiration.” It is the supernal soul of man, which pulls man towards YHWH. Imagine a pure light inside of every person in the world; this is the neshamah.  It is totally good and unblemished.  The neshamah is the part of YHWH within man.  Proverbs 20:27 says, “The neshamah of man is the candle of YHWH, searching all the inward parts of the belly.”  Through the neshamah, one may connect to the will, wisdom, and understanding of Yah. How?

The neshamah longs to be reunited with the Almighty.  Its only desire is to return to its source; to be reunited in purpose. Each cell of our body, containing the divine name, groans to be reunited with YHWH.  But it can’t.  Why not?  Because of fleshly desires that result in sin.  Sin stops the earth suit of the body from fully returning to its starting place with YHWH.  The fleshly nature leads us to rebel against the Almighty’s will and His ways.  Our soul can not cleave to YHWH because of our fleshly nature and ego.  The desire to receive for self alone blocks the light of our neshamah.  Our selfish actions are like a huge dark cloth, covering the Light of the Creator.  Darkness grows, but the light remains.

Try viewing mankind as an ember from the burning bush.  The human body is the container of a divine spark from YHWH.  Left alone, this spark will diminish and burn low through seeking pleasure in worldly desires.  The false fulfillment of momentary happiness is a darkness that seeks to put out our fire.  Each action of the flesh places another layer of darkness upon the light.  These layers of darkness are called “sin,” or “chet” in Hebrew.  Chet is an ancient word that literally means to “miss the mark, loose focus, stray, miss the goal or path of right and duty, to incur guilt, incur penalty by sin, forfeit.”  While many people think that someone who sins is a  “bad person,” the Biblical concept is different.  We all chet; we all sin; we all miss the mark.  That doesn’t make us bad people, we’re just off target!  In truth, the Hebrew word “Chet” appears in the Bible (Judges 20:16) referring to slingers who could shoot at a hair and not “chet”, meaning not to “miss the target.”  Chet is failure in a person’s relationship with YHWH.  Our goal should be to continually move closer to the target of YHWH, but chet causes distance.

Sin is equivalent to “distance.”  Our sins distance us from the Light within.  “Your sins have separated between you and YHWH, and your chet (sins) have hidden his face from you, so that he will not hear,” Isaiah 59:2.  Chet is the distance we place between our neshamah and our Creator as we miss the mark of the Scriptures.

Bull’s Eye…

The center of YHWH’s bull’s eye is clearly explained within the pages of the first five books of the Bible.  These teachings are often referred to as the “law.”  In Hebrew these books of instruction are called “torah.”  The Torah is YHWH’s will for mankind and blueprint for living.  “The Torah is holy, and the commandments holy, and just, and good,” says Romans 7:12.  When we follow Torah we don’t sin.  To obey the precepts of Torah is to stay on the straight and narrow road of redemption.  A person sins when the Torah is violated or forgotten.  The book of First John clarifies this.  “Everyone who sins practices torahlessness.  Because sin (chet) is torahlessness,” 1 John 3:4.  The problem is that we can’t follow Torah enough.  The obedience of today doesn’t erase the disobedience of yesterday.  Though we obey the Torah, the layers of darkness remain within our soul.  This is because Torah does not redeem.  Torah describes how the redeemed believer is to live and relate to YHWH.  Mankind is redeemed only through YHWH code.

The soul code of DNA links man to YHWH.  But, this doesn’t equate mankind to YHWH.  We aren’t god.  The code shows only our potential – to be like YHWH in our intentions and purpose.  We can’t achieve His state of greatness.  Just as a flashlight will not work without batteries, our sincere efforts to correct the soul are useless.  We just can’t correct our soul enough.  We just can’t follow Torah enough.  The darkness of chet is too much.  Good works can’t dispel total darkness.  “Whoever keeps the whole Torah and yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it,” says the Newer Testament.  Prayer, obedience, and faith bring us closer to YHWH, but without the love of Messiah, we are still in the dark.  Messiah is the floodlight that lights up our life.

Moshiach’ love is the bridge that joins our neshamah to our Creator.  The Savior is the light that saves us from eternal darkness and suffering.  To handle the issue of sin, we must realize that stars are only seen at night.  Under the deep darkness of sin is the light of the soul.  Hidden in the DNA of every man, woman, and child is the YHWH code.  To experience life at its fullest, all one must do is look inside and see the Sacred Name.  YHWH is the path to purpose and way to life eternal.  YHWH is our only hope.  We need YHWH’s salvation to deliver us from evil.  Let’s decipher this code and understand man’s redemption.

“Anyone who calls upon the name of YHWH will be saved,” Joel 2:32.  This verse is quoted twice in the New Testament, in which both cases the Messiah is seen as fulfillment of this prophecy.  The YHWH code is manifest in His Son.  His son is the path of deliverance. Calling upon His Name allows the believer to excess the Almighty’s power for deliverance.  Appropriately, the true name of Messiah demonstrates how this works…“And you shall call Him Yahshua, for He will save his people from their sins,” says Matthew 1:21.

The Hebrew speaking, King of the Jews was given a Hebrew name.  He wasn’t named “Jesus,” but “Yahshua.”  In the gospels, the Messiah said that He came in His Father’s name – the name of YHWH.  How is YHWH Yahshua’s name?

The name Yahshua is a compound word, made up of two Hebrew phrases.  First, YAH is a shortened version of the name of YHWH.  The Name YAH is a poetic form of YHWH, found throughout the Psalms.  The KJV says, “Sing praises to his name: extol him that rideth upon the heavens by his name YAH, and rejoice before him,” Psalm 68:4.  Secondly, “shua” is a Hebrew word meaning to “deliver, turn, save, or salvation.”  When these two words are put together, the Savior’s true name is revealed:

“YAH”    +     “shua”   =  “YHWH is salvation”   =    Yahshua

YHWH offers His salvation, His deliverance through the person of Yahshua.  Yahshua bridges the gap between YHWH and our souls.

Mankind was made in the image of YHWH.  We have His name written upon our very DNA.  Scientists have proved that His name is stamped upon every soul.  However, because of chet, because of sin, layers of separation distance our soul from our creator.  “All have sinned and fallen short of the glory of YHWH,” Romans 3:23.  Our stubborn self-will causes us to go an independent way.  However, because of loving kindness, YHWH has “sent His only begotten son, that whosoever believes upon him would not perish but have everlasting life,” John 3:16.  We can connect our neshamah to YHWH though his son, Yahshua.  The Savior is the only path to deliverance and salvation from the sinful self.  The layers of sin that cloak our neshamah can only be removed through His blood.   “As many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become the children of YHWH, even to those who believe in His name,” John 1:12.  The DNA within our bodies points to our Creator and the salvation that He has provided.  The YHWH code, within each person, is His son Yahshua.

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Stained

as you are pushed against the wall
you wish you were a brick
but the wall desires no part of you
other than fear
Fear inspires the wall
to grow
beyond everything you see
and more
much more
is lost
you can spend your entire life carving your name on it
or force your mind
to freely run
as if the wall
had an illuminated window
stained with your thought
of no wall at all
but why
why does it always hurt
to open