expecting of me

God is light, and in him I see no darkness at all
we talk about it sometimes then
confused
I forget what he said
and need to come back for clarity
of any of his words
leaving darkness behind
waiting
expecting of me
jealous

meanwhile I find in women
on Earth
a better past
time
of not knowing
just living one life in one place under one Sun
and that’s how I would like to die
empty
spent
so no tree can feed on me

and I only want to get the girl now
born on 11/11
eleven years younger
as before
and I can come back to any transparency Above
you dwell in

remember
I am just a man
in Now
trapped for your pleasure
and burning

consider it prayer
Gad