prayer

Awareness  of finality of each moment
and fully functional  life are not lining up for me
I need to redefine relationship with death

if I am to meet my end
on a day like this
quietly
when shift just happens
and my sense of danger is not truly awakened

if I am to move beyond material form of abstract me
become a wave
to calm my storms and raging self-awareness

or maybe

my Father
come as you are
I am an old soul
veteran of life and its loss
guide me to Elysium
let me crave the sounds
of trumpets and horses
let me watch the harvest
and touch the fire of judgement